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Don't know how to start this... but i desperately need an outlet to vent out.

I am definitely burning out ... with overloaded work, unappreciated efforts, invisible contributions, working with manupulative bastards, not trustworthy bitches, friends that have become foes, betrayors, buttering assholes, dim-witted idiots... i am very tired over all these unnecessary predicaments.

Things could have been better, have become bad and to a certain extent, have become worse. Rotting to the maximum until you smell the foul long before you see it.

Unscrupulous people - they survive well because of their covering ass act, because of their manupulative words, because they are good in buttering bosses, because they are champions in adding salt and pepper to every single words that vomit out from their soul...huh, I am really very tired.

I have applied unpaid leave for a month effective December 2008, but guess what, it was not approved. Yeah, my boss will be the biggest idiot if he was to approve my leave, but then i will be the biggest idiot if i were to stay on, here in this torturing chamber...

My children are having their school break, Khalis has gone balik kampung to spend more quality time with Opah. Ain is spending her school holiday with nenek, totok and aunty cu and aunty yayah. See, even my children are not spending time with me this round.

Hubby is busy for end year closing. Busy preparing for the upcoming downturn and preparing for the worst. So he is also busy doing his own things.

Me, myself and I - busy trying to survive in this unjust and unfair world... I am losing control of myself, after quite a while... guess this is my down period... been trying to pick myself up, still trying, not sure until when, but will keep on trying!!!

I have no one to talk to, no friends that I can trust anymore, oh Ya Allah, have mercy on me... hopefully i can ride through this difficult moment with breeze. Amin, ya rabbal alamin.